This is not a real blog post.
I just don't have time for that right now. Neither the time nor the energy. So I'll just sketch things out. You can fill in the details.
I thought things would slow down after Listen to Your Mother had come and gone.
Not hardly. There's always something. All the little things I didn't do in those last frantic weeks of preparing for the show? Still needed to be done.
Mountains of laundry. Sinkloads of dishes. A living room that looks like a toystore threw up in it. The house elves did not come in and magically take care of all that shit.
And in the midst of it all I decamped for an overnight to Philly to hear THEIR own LTYM. A one day road trip with my producing partner Holly, the Culture Mom, which couldn't have been more fun.
|The wonderful LTYM - Philly Producing Team|
And then there was Mothers Day. More work. A brunch in New Jersey with the in-laws.
If this were a post I would tell you how tough it was this year on Mothers Day, being with my mother, who is a mere ghost of herself. She has forgotten who nearly everybody is. She could barely walk, gets less steady on her feet each passing week, yet won't use the rollator walker - of which she has THREE - out of stubborn pride.
This subdued old woman who just sits and vaguely smiles with nothing to say and no idea where she is or why she's there? Just breaks my heart.
She appreciated the sunshine and greenery on the backyard deck. She smiled at our niece's toddler twin boys who so remind us all of toddler Ethan & Jake, simultaneously so long ago and just a blink away.
But she no longer plays with my boys. Doesn't know how to talk to them, their interests incomprehensible to her now limited comprehension.
If this were a post I would tell you about how Jacob has developed a whole new panoply of annoying habits this spring, including a frequent maniacal loud giggling laugh that we call "the silly laugh" because calling it "the maniacal creepy laugh" is just too... creepy.
I would tell you how the medicine that was helping Ethan to focus all year started to make him paranoid and angry so we had to stop it, and now we're back to square one.
I would tell you.
But I'm too tired to write that post. You'll have to fill in the blanks. I'm sure you can.
Now, sit down here and take a little nap with me. There, that's nice. And when we wake up we can fold some laundry. And I will tell you...