...because I am about to try something new here. I am about to become a regular blogger.
I have realized that I put way too much pressure on myself to come up with impressive and "important" posts. Maybe it's because I started blogging as my father was dying and the words just tumbled out of me all intense and poetic as I was facing the first big death in my life, like here. Or because I have special needs kids, and have written posts that I worked on for weeks, after first mulling over and thinking about the big ideas in them for years, like here.
But I have decided to cut myself a break, and let myself be a "regular" blogger. Regular in both senses of the word. First off: frequent, hopefully daily (you all know what regular I'm referring to here, right? don't make me spell it out for you.) Secondly, regular as in "what is regularly done"; what so many others do, and what blogging is so gloriously good for: sending little postcards from my inner and outer life, sharing snapshots of the moment. I want to write "today" in a post and have it actually BE the today I'm writing about, not over ruminated and 2 weeks later.
The "big" posts will come occasionally, there may even be important ones from time to time. In the meantime, I can let out all those thoughts, feelings, observations, rants and shouts that I have been jotting down, trying to mold into something "more" before it felt OK to send them out into the world. Screw that. This is my soapbox and I'm going to have fun with it.
So stay tuned tomorrow for a short snippet of random fluff from my brain. That is all.